way too fat

I got fat. Watch me attempt to undo that.

Squeak

Made it to the gym 4x this week. Would throw my arms up in the air only…no energy lol. 2 days of bodyweight circuits and 2 days of running. Did my usual 7,8,9,10,11 km/h intervals (2 min at each speed for 2 sets plus a bit of a sprint at the end) so I’m quite proud of myself.

Knowing I’d already made it 3x this week made it pretty hard to drag my butt there today but I DID IT. Now I can eat all of the nachos and all of the popcorn when I go watch Maleficent tonight.

Saturday is the last day of my awesome month and a half off diet. I’m feeling QUITE fat and gross so it’s definitely time to get back into shape haha but I’m sad that this joyous period is over. Sigh. Oh well. Here’s to a skinnier tomorrow hey?

What’s Appalling

Is not so much that I thought my heart might explode after the second round of high knees to finish off my circuit for today, but the horrifying realisation that the “workout” that’s kicking my butt so hard is only slightly more than the circuit I usually do AFTER my proper sets with the barbell.

Anyway. Made it to the gym twice last week, gunning for 3 body weight sessions this week, then I’ll return to barbells next week (probably for a SUPER light session each time though lol) and then back to diet.

I CAN DO THIS LEZGOLEZGO

So while I’m off diet, I’ve been inhaling all manner of carbs and nonsense in the most ridiculous manner. But tonight I finally cooked something a little more wholesome (though not particularly non-fattening haha) and it was pretty awesome. It’s adapted from this bonapp recipe (I left out the fennel seeds and swapped majoram out for rosemary cos that’s what I had) but the basic premise is just rubbing a chicken inside and out with herby salty peppery oil and then roasting it in a low oven (mine was around 145°C) for 3h or so. I feel like this basically can’t overcook so it’s an awesome dish to chuck together in the arvo and forget about whilst you go about your day, and apparently makes great leftovers - check back if I don’t inhale the entire thing tonight haha. 

Wasn’t really in the mood for potatoes (for once) so I did a buttered broccoli rice instead and maaaaaan. SO GOOD. 

This might just be the dish that kicks my butt back into cooking more regularly. Super super awesome.

So while I’m off diet, I’ve been inhaling all manner of carbs and nonsense in the most ridiculous manner. But tonight I finally cooked something a little more wholesome (though not particularly non-fattening haha) and it was pretty awesome. It’s adapted from this bonapp recipe (I left out the fennel seeds and swapped majoram out for rosemary cos that’s what I had) but the basic premise is just rubbing a chicken inside and out with herby salty peppery oil and then roasting it in a low oven (mine was around 145°C) for 3h or so. I feel like this basically can’t overcook so it’s an awesome dish to chuck together in the arvo and forget about whilst you go about your day, and apparently makes great leftovers - check back if I don’t inhale the entire thing tonight haha.

Wasn’t really in the mood for potatoes (for once) so I did a buttered broccoli rice instead and maaaaaan. SO GOOD.

This might just be the dish that kicks my butt back into cooking more regularly. Super super awesome.

Holy Deprovement, Batman

Hello. So. I don’t remember if I mentioned but way back when, one of my (many) motivators to get my ass off the couch and into a smaller-sized pair of jeans was the wedding of one of my best friends. Many years ago, over one of our nonsensical half-drunk conversations, she’d given me a heads up that when she got married I was gonna be a bridesmaid. Which was all cool, until she told me about the other potential bridesmaids. And I was like OKAY FAT BRIDESMAID ALERT. Sorry but I just didn’t want to be THAT girl. So I warned her that she had to give me at least 18 months heads up to whip my butt into shape haha.

TL;DR, that wedding happened last month! And here’s where I’m at: I got loads of great feedback, and generally felt pretty good about myself (yay!) but I also COMPLETELY fell off the exercise/diet bandwagon about 2-3 weeks before the wedding. Which…not the best time no. I also gave myself until the end of May to eat whatever I want and have a little pre-summer fling with my beloved booty call JUNK FOOD, but I got back into the gym today.

NO FUN.

I kind of feel like I’ve forgotten entirely how to gym. Lol. It’s nuts. I did a little body weight circuit and almost DIED by the time I was done with my usual 5-minute warm up run. Soooooo. It’s a good thing I was too lazy to hit the proper gym and just did this work out in my condo’s gym since I would have probably dropped a few barbells on myself or something. But anyway the goal is to ease myself back into it (I’m not terribly concerned about getting right back to my old PRs immediately or anything, it’s more about getting back into the swing of the routine - like eating breakfast before I send L to work so that I can hit the gym straight after) over the next couple of weeks, then back to lifting (heavy) by the time I’m back on my diet.

My next big goal is my 30th birthday - thankfully I have no more bikini trips slated for the next year or so, and I just generally want to be in the best shape I can be in by then so I can switch to a maintenance routine without having to excuse carbs completely anymore. I also quite dislike how soft my legs have started feeling (thank you weekend shopping and skinny jeans for putting that ALL into perspective) so I’m definitely looking forward to feeling and looking stronger once this blubberific month is up. :)

Just back from a week of snowboarding. That powder was AMAZING. And I think all those squats and deadlifts and core strengthening really worked - I noticed a pretty significant improvement since the previous season, and I’ve just about started to do little silly looking jumps! YAY.

HULKSMASH

I’m really frustrated. I had shingles over CNY and although the rash is mostly gone (or almost healed up anyway) the fucking pain still keeps coming back. My shoulder gave out on Monday when I was on my third set of planks (I skipped the proper strength portion too) and today there was suddenly a stabbing pain while I was deadlifting.

I’m really struggling at 10kg below my usual deadlifts weight and it’s pissing me off because it took so long to get up to lifting 75kg and now I’m back down to 65? I mean. COME ON.

I’m also not sure if I should just stop. Especially since I can’t think of any exercises I can do which aren’t going to involve me dropping a barbell or dumbbell on myself if my shoulder gives out.

THE HAPPINESS PAPER HAT I LOVE IT (also i want to wear this hat always sigh)

(Source: tastefullyoffensive, via esyedoesit)

hulu:

More! We smell a Salmon Ladder spinoff. 

As if it wasn’t hot enough when a dude did this. O_____o

(via ennn)

INHALE.

I made it to 3 assisted chin ups (5kg assist) today, and probably could have squawked halfway up the fourth but wasn’t feeling up to it. So. Depending on how I feel on Monday, I might try my first ever pull up.

Wish me luck.

HELLO LONG TIME NO SEE

So. I’m done with 6 weeks Barbell Battalion Level 2 (in fact, I think I finished it about two weeks ago haha), but I’m really enjoying these workouts (EXCEPTING THE FRONT SQUATS WHY DO YOU ALWAYS ROLL DOWN MY ARMS AND BRUISE ME SO, BARBELL??!!!) so I’ve decided to stick to this for the time being. Now that the Christmas and New Year festive (read: greedy) period has passed, I’m also buckling down for the last couple of months I’ve given myself to get in shape.

SO. This is gonna be a pretty long post since it’s time to do a status check (fitness wise) and also to have a look at where I stand re all the mini and not-so-mini goals I’ve set for myself.

First up, fitness.

Deadlifts
Yay deadlifts, ilu always and forever. Last week I hit 73kg, bringing me properly over the 100% bodyweight mark. (I actually dropped in weight to 70.3kg but then thanks to Christmas etc I went back up to around 72ish when I cleared 71kg for my deadlifts, but this time nobody has to hem and haw over technicalities.) YAY. My grip is really starting to be the super weak link here, so I got a couple of those squeezy grip things which I now absently use whilst watching TV, as well as spending up to 60 seconds hanging from the pullup bar at the end of some workouts when I remember. I’m not being super mindful about this, but I don’t really want to have to be, so we’ll see if this helps at all. If not, then I’ll start maybe being a bit more mindful and actually factoring this into my actual routines.

Squats
After my last post, I started getting a bit unstable and noticing my form failing, so I dropped my squats weight down to 35-40kg, and I’ve been working my way back up. I’m more confident now, especially after a couple of sessions with V when she was in HK to keep an eye on me, and it felt pretty good yesterday knowing that I was definitely sinking low enough even without having to glare at myself in the mirror. I also got back up to 51kg yesterday, I think, so yay we’re coming back to where I was before.

Front Squats
I HATE YOU FOREVER THE END GOOD BYE.

Pushups
I’m now alternating between declines and regular push ups every week. Again, nothing much to talk about. Thinking about switching up to plyometric push ups soon, but I’ve also been pushing myself on benching so I’m generally fairly tired by the time I get round to these.

Bench Press
Deloaded a bit to work on my form, back up to 42kg.

OHP
So V taught me this power clean and press thing (basically shrugging the barbell up then finishing with an OHP) which I’ve switched to doing as of the last couple of weeks. I’m up to 26kg, which is pretty darn heavy-feeling - by the last couple of reps I’m usually struggling to finish the OHP evenly.

Pullups
HAH. Okay. I’m not there yet. BUT IT IS CLOSE I FEEL IT. I was doing 3 sets (-12kg, -19kg, and -26kg) and then it actually started getting too easy so I’m now doing -5kg, -12kg and -19kg. I can so far do about 2 pull ups with 5kg assists. I’m waiting until I can do at least 3 good ones (and struggle about halfway up on the fourth at least) before I attempt a proper pull up. My chin ups are definitely lagging behind, but it’s okay, I’d prefer to be able to do a pull up before a chin up anyway. And this week I have to switch my 25-in-as-few-sets-as-possible assist weight to 19kg ‘cos I did 13 assists in a set with the 26kg weight so clearly this is now too light. I SCARE. But also, GOPRO I AM COMING FOR YOU.

Anyway. On to my goal tracking.

Exercise
I’ve been pretty good about the 3x a week weights + 1x a week intervals so far. I think I only ever missed anything when I was sick. I’m upping my intervals to 2x a week (but not super strict, just when I have time on Saturday mornings, and I’m aiming to do this at least once every fortnight?) so I can get cracking on the weight loss and power through this last month or so.

I’m pretty much done with all of my strength training intermediate goals, except for benching 50kg, and my first pull up (as mentioned above) so yay! I haven’t been doing negative pull ups but I figure when I get to my first pull up I’ll get the GoPro AND the sunglasses haha. :D

Weight Loss
So I earned my cookbook (which I actually pre-bought, long story), so yay for that. It’s actually with a friend now so I wouldn’t be tempted to read it before I earned it, but that’s okay. No rush. :)

I’m still around 5kg from getting my S$100 back from V, but MAYBE JUST MAYBE I might get it (all) back by 16 Feb. That’s the deadline I have.

I occasionally feel like there hasn’t been that much visible change in my body from the last 5kg I lost, but I’ve also been told I’m an idiot so I’m trying not to worry too much. My jeans (including the new ones from around August/September) are all pretty loose now, which feels great as I have an excuse to shop but my wardrobe is getting pretty boring ‘cos as far as I’m concerned I’m not done yet so I don’t want to spend too much on all these intermediate articles of clothing either haha. #firstworldproblems amirite. But all in I’m feeling pretty good, generally, and I barely even see the diet as a diet anymore. My fat percentage has also dropped about 8% total since I first embarked on this properly, so I’m quite happy with that too, obviously. BUT MORE MORE MORE. Haha.

In the meantime, I’ve got just under 3 months to the wedding that was the catalyst to kickstart all this, and slightly over a month before I start losing money off my S$100, so LEZDODIS. Thankfully, CNY will be a healthy if lonely affair here with the cats (wrestling medicines into Rufus’s mouth during my tuanyuanfan for one) so I don’t need to worry about backtracking on the progress then.

OKAY. CHECK BACK WITH ME ON FEB 16 TO SEE IF I MADE IT OR NOT. BRB.